On March 1, 2014 my son was born. Each day this little man teaches me more about how to live my yoga than over ten years on my mat.
“Happiness comes from within you — it is not a place, a person, a situation, or an event.”
How often do you think back to that time you were really happy? Do you have a mental picture of what your life will look like to be happy? I do. Or rather I did. And it was not of me in the blue light of sunset dozing off as I nurse a baby to sleep. And it was not feeling that baby’s warm head rest against my shoulder as I, in a semi-conscious state, pat his back so he will sleep comfortably. This was not what happiness looked like. Yet, this is exactly what happiness looks like for me.
When I realized I was happy, I had a sensation of pleasure uplift me. There is a joy in recognizing I am happy…especially doing something that I thought of as tedious. Even as I write this the feeling is still there because I realize that I AM CONTENT in my life, in who I am, and the identities I wear. I suddenly feel more confident, lighter, and more forgiving of myself. I wonder how long have I been happy but wasn’t aware of it because my life didn’t match the ideal in my head of what things should look like for me to be happy. Can you wonder the same thing?